I started reading Halo
this week.
But I kind of feel like that might be stupid of me? I started it because a long time ago I promised Cody that if he read Twilight then I’d read Halo. He read alllll of the Twilight books. I didn’t want to read Halo, and so I said that I didn’t think it was fair that he ended up liking the book that I wanted him to read when I knew I wouldn’t like Halo. So I never read it. Which I know is something stupid, and maybe he doesn’t even care about that anymore, and he never even really made a big deal about it, but I know that if it was the other way around, that if he wasn’t reading the book when I’d read a book he wanted me to, I’d have freaked out. And I know he didn’t do that, but I want to keep that promise, even if it took me so long. But part of me thinks that if I read that book, that’s something stupid for me to do, since… really… I guess we really don’t have any reason to keep the promises we made to each other, since we’re not together anymore =\ But, I still don’t drink, or even sip Dr. Pepper even though I want to. I just promised him, and I don’t want to break the promises I made to him, because I still love him, and it’s still a promise regardless of our relationship status. But I don’t know if that’s me being stupid and thinking wayyy too much into things. So, I decided. If we ever are together, that’s the first thing I’m going to do, read Halo. Just because its something that I still care about. Unless there’s something else he’d rather me do? But that’s what I’m planning on doing unless I find out something different. Eh, not that I’m saying that we’re going to be back together for sure, just IF we do. Which I know I shouldn’t even be thinking about, but I still haven’t stopped=\ And it’s hard for me to not.
